I'm just depressed again.

I dunno why.

Maybe its because I almost lost a friend last night, or maybe its because a good friend of mine from dA just lost his cousin.

Or maybe its because I'm tired.

Or a sad realization that my parents don't really like many of my friends.

Or the fact that I had a dream that I got pissed off at my roommate and had no where to live at school.

I don't know. It kinda feels like the world is falling apart again... and I know I'm not PMSing, cuz that happened already. And I can't escape at the moment because I need to really focus on getting ready for my sophomore year of college... and continue working on my audition pieces.

I'm just tired.

I'm kinda hoping that I cheer up soon, because I hate feeling this way. I'm not exactly hoping for some dude to appear outside my bedroom window with a boombox playing love songs to me and pouring his heart out, because hell, I've had enough of people confessing to me at the moment. And I ate a whole Lindtt chocolate bar already, so chocolate isn't the answer either. And staying up late drawing ecchi pictures and reading romance novels isn't helping.
I'm not saying that my life sucks, because it doesn't.

I just need a little excitement. Something interesting to happen that doesn't involve spontaneous shopping sprees or guys confessing that they like me or chocolate. Or going to the movies and watching romantic comedies.

And I'm kinda underage, so I can't go out to a bar (besides, I don't drink anyways).

Maybe I'll try making a plushie. Seeing that I'm probably not going to get sleep tonight.


... and an apology for just being blah again.