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I keep on getting reminded of why I don't want to teach General Music Education (which is music for grades k-6). I just... its not something I want to do. Granted, if that's the only job opening there is, then I'll take it... but I don't want to teach it. I know it sounds stupid to just say "I'm here to study how to conduct a band", but its... what I want to do. Yes, I understand that there are some aspects of general music education in Band, but... asjdkfasd. Meh.

On a somewhat related topic, MidTerms are fast approaching, and I still need... 40 hours completed. Tuesdays and thursdays, from this point on, from 12-1, I am going to be sitting and observing Junior student teachers. On Saturdays, I sit from 9-12 watching the Suzuki program. Sometime in november, there is a choral event that I can observe, and that's... 5 hours I believe. Fall Break, I am going and getting at least 20 hours. So let's see... that's.... 11 + 15 + 20 + 20 = I should be fine. Even if its 11 + 15 + 19 + 16. Aaaaaugh. So yes. I must observe the Junior student teachers on thursday... that is my only hope DX

I'm trying to keep as much hope as I can. Its hard to see straight when you feel stressed out and when the world seems to be suffocating you.

Anyways, I'm going to go practice trombone... if I can find confidence again.