This is what happens when I'm writing a term paper.

I've decided to try and push the entire thing with that boy away.

I can't be bothered by something like that right now... I really can't.

As much as I like him, I don't want to step on any toes. I don't want to pull him aside and tell him to stop talking to me, because I get the feeling he'll tell me that its just who he is: touchy-feely and just very friendly.
So I'm not going to think about it too much and move on with my life. Eventually something will happen.

... ugh, hold on, a song came up on my pandora that I detest...

Well, I'm not a big fan of Adele, but this'll do (considering it's titled "Someone Like You"... ha, funny how it fits, right?).


As I'm writing this, I have a newfound love for my character Lance again... he was, really, the first original character that was pretty damn good looking. And yet, despite his looks, he's seemed to have troubles with love and stuff like that. He's had a bunch of girlfriends in the past, but they all used him just to get what they want, and then they leave him behind. When he thought he found the one, she turned away and went to marry the man of her dreams, and his current love disappeared.
So to an extent, I kind of identify myself with him... I dunno why. Just with the way I feel towards romance at the moment. I'm not against it, I'm totally open to it, and I fall for practically anything... but something always turns me away. Doesn't matter if its rejection or if he has a girlfriend or whatnot.

So, tl;dr?

I'm trying to get over the guy in the post prior to this.

So, onto the why.
Because he has a girlfriend. I did (and this is going to sound so bad) some facebook stalking to see how long he and his girlfriend have been together, and its been over 2 years. So me being me, I feel bad for liking a guy who has been in a relationship that has not only lasted that long, but is a long-distance one at that. Not to mention that she posts on his wall every five minutes (not literally). In the end, it seems unlikely that they will break up (not that I was hoping for it to happen). And deep inside, its rather cute to see that a relationship is flourishing even though they're miles and hours apart.

In the long run, it really doesn't matter much. I should stop worrying about that and just... move on.

I have a term paper about Tchaikovsky to finish. However, it doesn't help the fact that all my sources mention that he's gay and his love life completely sucked.

I'm tired... I should like, finish doing what I'm doing and go to bed, and write what I can tomorrow during my breaks.

Le sigh.