I'm not here to complain for once!

Usually I'm complaining in this blog... I promised I wouldn't do that to people, but hey. C'est la vie.


But anyways. Highlight of my day today:
Nearly caught a ball at the Yankee Stadium. There's a story behind this, actually...
So like, its my youngest brother's 12th birthday, and he's a BIG Yankee fan, so my parents decided to buy him tickets to a game. So we all went. And this was my first time at a MLB game ^^U (I don't get out much, can you tell), and needless to say, I had fun. BUT ANYWAYS, so like, my brother really wanted to catch a ball. If you've ever been to a MLB game, the players run out to the field and toss a few balls back and forth, and then they toss the balls into the crowd (or at least the Yankees do). So like, Nick Swisher was out in the field a couple of times, and my brother was trying to get his attention (we were in the foul ball seats, btw). So, I'm sitting in my seat, and all of the sudden, I was all, "I'm gonna give this shit a try." So, I stand up and wave my arms to try and get his attention. Anyways, so a couple of innings go by, and FINALLY, at this one inning... I get his attention.
Of course, I was waving my arms around and jumping up and down like some crazy lunatic... but it got his attention.
He looked right at me, smiled, and nodded... and threw the ball at me.
... cept, some dude in front of me caught it.

Oh well.

I'm still in la-la land about that though. XD

AND I DON'T EVEN LIKE BASEBALL, WHAT'S UP WITH THIS.

I just have my favorite players.

Like Cole Hamels on the Phillies. Heeeeeee... (-shot-)

Second Highlight: I think I saw my ex's dad walk by me at some point during the game. It freaked me out. I have yet to send him a message (my ex, since we're friends XD) if his dad was at the game...

---- New Topic XD ----

So, those on dA know that a little while ago, I talked about this dude appearing in my dreams. So like, all the guys I have dreamed of (the ones that I had a really good connection with) seem to share some similar characteristics:
- dark hair (usually messy looking)
- intense eyes
- boney structured face
- tall, slight build
- around my age
- bad-boy attitude
- understanding and thinks things through.

Its really weird.

So like, last night (Friday night-saturday morning), I had another dream with a guy of similar features again. Except that this guy was in a band (my mind kept on screaming Hot Chelle Rae, but... there's a reason why its not that) and he played trombone (in a different dream, but same guy. Weird, huh?). You know, it followed a very... cute kind of plot, and I ended up dating him... and I think it did a fast forward where I viewed myself after we were married. Or something like that.
(There was a scene where I was standing in a bathroom, where there was red lighting, and there were photos hanging on the wall of the shower-tub; it kind of reminds me of those places where photographs were taken to get developed. And I was talking on the phone with my friend MK about what Theme I was on (from the 100 Theme Challenge XD).)

Anyways, so I got this one detail that NONE of my other dreams have given me about this guy: his name. And you know, because my mind wanted him to be the lead singer of HCR, I had to look up the name of the members again just to make sure. Turns out it wasn't him.
But I remember thinking while dreaming that "This guys name can't be this name... because it resembles the dude from Fall Out Boy... whom I don't even like...".

My mind gave me the name Pete Krus. Kruse? Kruz? Crus? I have no idea how to spell that. I just know how it sounded (sounds like Cruise, but not spelled like that) XD But I do know that his first name was Pete.

The guy from Fall Out Boy (whom I don't listen to, btw) is Pete Wentz.
The lead singer from HCR (whom I DO listen to XD) is Ryan Follese.
Krusz (same pronunciation as above) is the last name of my 4th Grade math teacher, who adores me.

Maybe my mind is just making things up (which is usually the case), but I'd like to think that it means something. Not that I should look out for a person named Pete, but that it means something significant. I don't know... I like to look into dreams XD

Anyways, that's it for tonight. If you'd like, post below about interesting baseball game events that have happened to you or interesting dreams that you've had. I'd be interested in reading them!

Oh whoops.

I haven't updated this in a while again xD Shortest hiatus ever.

I'm going to New York today (saturday) to see a Yankees game. (I'm not a Yankees fan, but the rest of my family is XD), so if you happen to be there, come say hi.
If you can find me.
But anyways, its my youngest brother's birthday, so this was a birthday gift to him.

I've been stuck trying to get comic pages ready all week and other stuff... oh, and practicing my audition music for school, so that's taking up some time.

So yeah, if I'm not updating this, that's why.


Anyways, I'm going to go complete a few things, and then head to bed. So... ttyl~

Life is Life

Both comics are now updated, and I will try and keep them updated between the Friday-Sunday block. I'm excited though... StWOM has 3 fans and ADBtD has 5! And most of them are people I don't know or haven't read the comics on dA (actually, StWOM was the only one that appeared on dA... haha).

I look back, and I realize that I started my pen comic in 2009. The cover came out a year later. But... I've had this story going on for 2 years o_o

... I'll have to post the next three themes on here later... I still need to scan one (actually, two now XD). But, one is FMA fanart! (I'll give you a hint: Theme 7). Woooo. I never do fanart, but lately, its been FMA fanart.
I miss Full Metal Alchemist.
I was also depressed to find out that some of the characters had been changed completely while I was drawing Theme 7. Oh well.

Anyways, I think I'm headed to bed wicked early tonight. No staying up late drawing for me... I'm tiiiired.

Enjoy these funny videos since I have nothing else to offer:

Updaaaaates!

I have to quit being lazy about these comics.... I'll sign on and salvage the files for the first chapter of Someone To Watch Over Me, and the first line will be posted! HAHA. Hopefully by later tonight... or by friday, I promise.

And Its Always Darkest Before the Dawn will soon be updated (after a year XD) later too. That, I'm excited for.

I'm going to make an effort to update them within the Friday-Sunday block, just so people don't get like... impatient. I really want to make an effort with these guys ;^; They're my babies.


Anyways, so I'm currently working on the next page for ADBtD, and I needed to grab Fred for posing. (Fred is my wooden mannequin, btw. My friend Anni got it for me for my birthday a few years ago... and Fred was the name of the Dunkin Doughnuts guy that I liked way back when XD) So, I had to locate him first, because my cats have this bad habit of chewing on his hands and feet, and I hid him somewhere in my room to prevent any further chewing.

So I found him inside a laundry basket... and the first thing I noticed that his hands were chewed even more.

Needless to say, Fred is now horrified that his hands and feet have been chewed. I feel bad for him... and yet, I had to laugh while drawing the face on him...

Anyways, I must return to drawing the next few pages for my comics.

And continue listening to the Portal 2 soundtrack on my iPod~~ (love love the music)

ONWARDS.

Better Than Expected

Scones are delicious.

Anyways, thought y'all might want to know that things went much better than I thought they would tonight... we talked things out, and turns out we were both thinking the same thing. I hope that we can return to being cool friends...
I should realize by now that not all guys are dick-heads.

Anyway... I'm still moping around. Eventually this'll all pass... I hope. I still kinda want to curl up and die, but hey. That's life... c'est la vie, n'est pas?


Anyways, here's a video to lighten the mood:

Meh meh meh

Just Meh.

Yeah really, right?

I know its like... totally 2 AM right now (my post thingy lies, by the way. I don't know why its like... 2 hours off), but I figured that I probably won't have any other time to update, since I'm like... out all day.
And not sleeping the entire day again.

But yeah. So, my mom asked me to go to this garden tour with her, so I thought I should do it... I mean, I get to go to the craft store afterwards and pick up two other sketch pads (one is to be used for the 100 Themes... rather, the last... 40 themes of it lol, and the other is for a comic a friend of mine and I are working on), and maybe a trip to Barnes and Nobles (since there are no more Borders closest to us, so I can't hit the clearance sales...)

I'm totally pissed that Borders is going away, just fyi. I loved Borders. Oh well...

I'm writing this while I'm like, half asleep. I'm gonna hit the hay after this... just so I can wake up in 7 hours to take a shower and go on this garden tour thingy with my mom.

And then, after that, I have the third showing of The Wiz that my high school is putting on (I got hired to play in the pit, haha). And I'm kind of... like... not in the mood to go?
Remember that loooong rant-post that I posted... a couple of days ago? My friend and I talked it out (as I did with my mom)... well, not the guy, a girl friend and I. I explained my thoughts exactly... and I figured out what I needed to do.

I'm not happy that I'm going to go through with telling him that I don't want to date him, but... I don't want to lead him on. I don't want to leave him with a "..." kind of closure... and it will be hard telling someone that you just want to be friends. I don't want him to wait on me to come around, because I, honest to god, told myself that I'm not interested in dating anyone at the moment.
I'm upset that I have to tell him this because, well, I just met him a couple of months ago. He's a totally sweet person and like... I feel bad. Because I do like him, just... I need to sort out feelings in my head. Usually, when things like this happen, I need time to figure out if I like him as a friend or as something more. I'm pretty sure I know where these feelings of mine are going, but at the same time... I don't. I'm excited that he's coming to see me play today (I hesitated in saying tomorrow, since tomorrow is today...), but in reality, I'm not sure if I'm excited that he's going to see /me/ or if I get to show off my trombone skills (or my lack thereof). But anyways, its hard, but its easy. Its easy to tell a guy that you don't want to date or make things... weird if you date them, because you hardly know them just yet. But its hard because the state of the friendship is... you know, still young?
I don't want to lose him as a friend because I was a total bitch in rejecting him... I guess in all honesty, I'm afraid of how he's going to react. To know that he likes me (I do know this because of several reasons), and then to take the heart that he's offering me and return it to him. I've had to do this in the past... but not like this. My grammar isn't making any sense whatsoever, is it? Well, I'll probably be writing a sob post about it later, after I return from The Wiz later tonight...

Anyways, you don't have to read that little blurb. I need a space to vent about the whole thing, and unfortunately, you guys are getting the entire thing.
I'm stressed out about it, and I really shouldn't be. But I am.

God, I'm a walking contradiction.


Anyways.

Has anyone realized how often I use the word "anyways"? Maybe I should start using "ahem" instead... (shrugs).

I'll return to posting the 100 Themes pictures soon, I just need this week to be over.
And before I forget, I kinda... forgot (haha) to post the link to Someone To Watch Over Me in my last post. The site is still under construction.... I haven't decided if I like the layout of it or not... anywho, here's the link: http://stwom.smackjeeves.com/

And for those who are interested in the other comic I mentioned, its a BL manga (just a heads up); I'm not all into shounen-ai, but these are two of our characters in our RP (the same RP that Forseth is in, just different time zones, so... it occurs before StWOM). Here's the link if you are interested: http://awdbd.smackjeeves.com/
God, I gotta fix Lexiant's face in the banner.... I'll do that later this week... its going to bother me otherwise.

I am offering you guys to friend me on facebook, so if you would like to friend me, send me a note or an email, and I will send you my name and such.
Though a slight warning: my facebook status isn't much better than it is here. I'm just as moody and temperamental.

In the meantime, enjoy this video about Blow-Out Sales at a Furniture Store (its actually really funny, I'm not kidding):




And if you want a special message, lemme know. Or if it actually becomes worthy news, I'll post about it later. All my LEGO/Bionicle friends are gonna be like "HAHA" and "Saw THAT coming". All depends on if my friend's boss likes me... 8'D

Oh Well

Been gloomy and not feeling well for the last few days. Might be a combination of PMSing amongst other things, but whatever.

So for the next couple of days, I'm playing in the pit for my high school's summer production of The Wiz. Should be fun [/sarcasm].

I got the next two themes done for the 100 Themes challenge. I'm going to scan them later.


OH. BY THE WAY. If you liked my pencomic Someone To Watch Over Me (it was on my dA page), it now has its own Smackjeevees site!
For those who know, the entire comic was made only in pen, and was a block panel comic (so it resembled the comics you read in the newspaper). I'm going to break up the comic, however, from being a page full of blocks, to strips, so its easier on the eye, and I don't have to worry about major resizing. My only concern is that I need to make sure that it flows nicely...
Yeah.

Anyways, that's it for today.