So I kinda decided to leave dA

I don't know why.

Actually, I do know why.

If you care for the details, here's why: I got sick and tired of people just like going "Oh look, I'm going to watch this person because she's doing fanart for this product! And oh look! She's doing a comic on it!" and then having most of those same people be bitchy at me for not updating the comic, and some just only comment on shit that had to do with that fandom. At first, I really didn't mind or care, because I liked it. I liked my own story, my art and stuff like that.
But when you start posting other things, you expect those same people to comment on those pictures. And when no one does, you kind of lose faith in your fans. And then when you stop the comic and the major flow of that fandom and you lose the majority of your fanbase... you know what they cared for. You know why they looked at your art... they only wanted that comic. Only that art.
And I finally snapped and deleted the entire thing off my gallery.
Just when I thought things were getting better, I picked up the entire 100 Themes thing again, you know... because I wanted a challenge. I wanted something to do, because no one was commissioning me or anything. Not that I really cared... I knew that some people would be a little paranoid about sending money in the mail instead of using paypal (which is much easier to use in my opinion, but there are people in my life that won't allow me to open one, despite my age). I understood everything and their feelings.... ANYWAYS, so I thought things were getting better... until I posted the third theme, and I got an influx of comments on it. Why? Because it was connected to said fandom. And it kinda hurt a little bit... to see that I put JUST AS MUCH FREAKIN EFFORT into all my other pictures, if not more, and to have only ONE of them receive all the fucking attention.
I just had it.

Maybe I'll return to dA and start posting pictures again.

I'm just a little bothered at the moment.




And if any of my dA friends are reading this, I love you guys. I'm sorry that I bitched at y'all the way I have been, and that it had to end the way it did... and I honestly don't expect to be forgiven or a big fat hug from you guys. Y'all are my source of inspiration; you're all admirable and inspirational people, even if you are artists, pixel artists, authors, or photographers... it doesn't matter. You all mean a lot to me.

Anyways... I'll begin posting shit here, for anyone who actually reads this. I just need to get the files for the 100 themes, which are on my other computer.

Sometimes I question the motives of others.

Deleted :D

What do you do...

When you like someone, but you're not sure about it. When you want to trust someone, but you're hesitant in doing so, because the previous relationship left you in pieces.

When you know the person likes you, and you like them back in return... but are just too damn scared to admit anything.

I don't know.


Ending post now.

Guess Who's Making Cake?

First of all, to those who actually read this, I must apologize for me venting yesterday. That happens. Shit happens.

Anyways...
I've made a couple of cakes over the years, but more recently, I've gotten into the habit of making cakes based off of video games. For my dad's birthday, we decided (as in, my brothers and I) that we would make him the infamous Portal Cake. Y'know... the "cake is a lie" cake? The chocolatey goodness, so delicious and moist, cake? Yeah.

Here's proof that I made it:

This Was a Triumph by ~data2048 on deviantART
I love how the camera on my laptop likes to make things backwards...

I'm making a note here... by ~data2048 on deviantART

The only thing that wasn't correct was the candle... so, I bought a nice, white candle the other day. And the fact that I didn't use pecans and coconut on the cake, like, at all. Why? I don't like pecans (blech, they taste bad when not used properly), and no one but myself and my dad likes coconut. So, we just decorated the cake with chocolate frosting and semi-sweet chocolate morsels. It tastes delicious either way.

But yeah. This is the third portal cake I've made... well, if you even count the first. The first was a... kind of... spur of the moment... and... yeah.


So! In the meantime, enjoy these videos for your pleasure!



(just let it be known that I LOVE Amnesia XD But its scary as fuck.)

Oh Summer.

Yay, deleted rant :D


Anyways.
Enjoy this hilarity.

100 Themes and ConnectiCon 2011

See, I'm actually keeping up with this now. Not that anyone reads this, but oh well.

Anyways, I was invited by a friend of mine to go to ConnectiCon 2011 with him on Saturday. I mean, I couldn't turn him down because... I felt bad. But, I still feel bad for having to turn down everyone else who offered to purchase a pass for me earlier. I don't know why I suddenly changed my mind... I guess it was the realization that I had nothing else to do on Saturday (technically, I could have gone Friday as well...).
So! I went, and I had fun. Although, I did spend the majority of my time shopping and meeting artists in the Artists' Alley. And I bought a TON of stuff (Well, two things, but still) from Chi's Sweet Home, including a cellphone charm and a hat.

If you have no idea what this show is, here's the first episode (they're about 5 minute long episodes):


I had a lot of fun catching up with friends that are a part of the group, Otaku New England (or O-NE). They had no idea I was coming, and I guess... it was good to seem them. I enjoyed it.
If you want, and you live in Connecticut, check them out! They have a group on deviantArt, Facebook, Twitter and... there's another site that fails to come to mind. But they're all really friendly and nice. The focus of the group is mostly for 16 years and older people who like Anime/Manga, but lately, they have included Cartoons, Video Games, and so much more.
They meet at the Canton Library from 6-9 PM, Wednesday Nights, every week. And as a quick reminder, you are not allowed to join unless you are older than 16 (sorry lol).

So yeah, the other portion of this blog. I mentioned in yesterday's entry that I was going to do a 100 Themes Challenge.
If you want to do it, here it is:
1. Introduction
2. Hero
3. Villain
4. Darkness
5. Love
6. Lost
7. Sin
8. Atonement
9. Forgiveness
10. Shopping
11. Yin-Yang
12. Distance
13. Idiots
14. Hope
15. Song
16. Dance
17. Absolution
18. Becoming
19. Vacation
20. School
21. Wings
22. Fire
23. Puzzle
24. Cake
25. Ill
26. Making Out
27. Animal Within
28. Monster
29. Samurai
30. Destiny
31. Choice
32. Indoors
33. Thief
34. Trapped
35. Trust
36. Protector
37. Dying
38. Stabbed
39. Reaching out
40. Fight
41. Broken
42. Run!
43. Night
44. Day
45. Can't Take It
46. Tribal
47. Honor
48. Teamwork
49. Excuse Me
50. Maid
51. Coffee
52. Brothers
53. Flashback
54. Temper
55. Fairytale
56. Override
57. Fragile
58. Busy
59. Authority
60. Missing
61. Rivalry
62. Clock
63. Amnesia
64. Awkward
65. Role-play
66. Children
67. Psychic
68. Desensitized
69. Sandwich
70. Little
71. Mirror
72. Invisible
73. Pokeball
74. FAIL
75. Confrontation
76. Irony
77. Piggyback
78. Silence
79. Teenagers
80. Exes (as in Ex-boyfriend or Ex-wife)
81. Magic
82. Insanity
83. Prayer
84. Like Father, Like Son
85. Singularity
86. Synchronized
87. Chocolate
88. Not Alone
89. Present (as in a gift)
90. Swimming
91. Caged
92. Pervert
93. Flowers
94. Library
95. Solo
96. Hush Now...
97. FFFFUUUUU---
98. Crash
99. Light My Candle
100. Finale

Feel free to use them for story ideas, picture ideas, comics... and if you can think of something for photography, be my guest. My friend and I created this list because both of us are artists and authors, so... we made a list that would lean both ways. However, it came to my attention that she (my friend) is a photographer as well... so I'm not sure if all the themes can be used for photos.
Anyways, if you want to do this list, you don't have to let me know, but I would appreciate it if you let others know that you are using my list lol

So, I hope you guys have a nice week! I'm not sure when my next update will be, and I will be posting pictures for each of the Themes. Later though. XD

Later!

Its been forever, hasn't it?

Not that I really use this anymore. I don't know why I created one in the first place.

I don't think anyone really uses Blogger anymore... but who cares? I shall dub thee the site for useless and random updates about my life!

Maybe someday I'll post pictures here too, y'know... for those who don't know my facebook, and those who honestly really care about what is going on in my life.

You have to excuse my poor sense of humor. I know I'm not that funny.

Anyways, maybe I'll use this site for like, my personal reviews on anime, manga, movies (films from Hollywood, don't worry), video games... you know, the things that are popular today? Maybe I'll even do people reviews. Ha.


So yeah. I might actually start using this site now. Since I feel bad for spamming my deviantArt friends with things unrelated to my art (for a lack of better words).
And if you're REALLY into this, you should check out my profile there. I'll give you a hint as to what my name is: its the same name as my email address.

Anyways.

I'll start complaining about life or other things later.

I'm off to draw pictures based on the 100 Theme's list that my friend and I created.

Let's do this shit.